Wednesday, May 23, 2012

i pay in flesh, so

sell me some kind of lie. something you know i'll buy.
entertain me as they become more responsible, more wealthy, less humble.

entertain me as we have less things in common with the world.
alienate me as they laugh at how little i know of what they know

allow me formal stanzas even if this is not a poem
even if i don't rhyme

i'll tell you everything i know, not fancier, not more concise
pacify me with manufactured reciprocals, trick by trick, as i roll over
and i'll roll with all my might
i'll roll till once, rolled up alone

when your fakes gone and lies undone
apparatus of honesty, rusty and dull

unfinished symphonies, latent choreographies of your fading shadow
rejuvenated, null

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

down on my knees

your head looks much more interesting, drastically more whimsical, intuitively knowing what i want - what you want, wordlessly - as words just get in the way up

i am lower than my spinal eyesight, beneath my social status, under my acquired dignity, pleasing descent - above lineage, surpassing your horizontal short-sight, nonchalant of your social status, draining your acquired dignity, pleased ascent

it makes no sense, as sense is not required. it becomes less worrisome, that i can't count, that you can't read.

it gives my heels privileged gradients of whether we can withstand time, choices that without temporary testimonies of flesh would have only pretended to exist.


Tuesday, May 15, 2012

big in japan - alphaville

Winter's cityside 
Crystal bits of snowflakes 
All around my head and in the wind 
I had no illusions 
That I'd ever find a glimpse 
Of summer's heatwaves in your eyes 
You did what you did to me 
Now it's history, I see 
Here's my comeback on the road again 
Things will happen while they can 
I will wait here for my man tonight 
It's easy when you're big in Japan 

Aah when you're big in Japan-tonight... 
Big in Japan-be-tight...
Big in Japan...ooh the eastern sea's so blue 
Big in Japan-alright
Pay! - Then I'll sleep by your side 
Things are easy when you're big in Japan 
Oh when you're big in Japan 

Neon on my naked skin, passing silhouettes 
Of strange illuminated mannequins 
Shall I stay here at the zoo 
Or should I go and change my point of view 
For other ugly scenes 
You did what you did to me 
Now it's history I see 
Here's my comeback on the road again 
Things will happen while they can 
I will wait here for my man tonight 
It's easy when you're big in Japan 

Aah when you're big in Japan-tonight... 
Big in Japan-be-tight... 
Big in Japan...ooh the eastern sea's so blue 
Big in Japan-alright, pay! 
Then I'll sleep by your side 
Things are easy when you're big in Japan

oh, girls - they wanna have -

going back to the fact that death is the only truth in life - that it, alone, is the inevitable - more concrete than the presence of an almighty maker of all - our eternal search for truth is flawed.

truth shall not exist outside the perimeters of the inevitable, on a global sense
truth is not achieved via observations and tests, because as we test and experiment, we are doing so on a scale incremental to ours and solely based on a biased perspective

the tree grows, we watch and take note
it is true that a tree grows
is it true that a tree grows
as it grows into its own death
it is true that a tree dies
is it true that a tree dies
as it plunges into a state we have no access to

as we accept that we have no access to truth, all we have is an infinite array of hypotheses that cancel each other out
do we ground ourselves in our questions, making every other one an answer based on partial outcomes
do we believe in a plan b that pretends it's a plan a, the uncreated creator of everything?

do we go elsewhere, and as we do so - what is elsewhere?

elsewhere as an omnipresent satisfaction, not happiness or its antagonist, comfort and its flipside
i gladly accept my lack of trajectory
my ignorance of where to go and what to know

going elsewhere, i would choose your lower lip as a good way to start
as you would argue, slowly, what 'good' might or might not mean

elsewhere, that wouldn't matter, and as we do so - what is elsewhere?

Monday, May 7, 2012

‎'if it doesn't make sense, rebel until you find out why..'

spleen, a guest contributor

Dear purple
I have something to say to the idiotic masses of the world and I need to borrow a hautparleur, a purple one by preference. 
And, I want to tell them the following: 

Let's argue
Homosexuality is making the crowds steer nervously again thanks to an article titled “Please me at any Price” by Mohamad Sibai who was disturbed when he saw two humans (he precises they were men) holding hands, as published in Outlook (AUB newspaper) on the first week of May 2012. The most reasonable argument against homosexuality that I have stumbled upon a couple of times, is the one I retrieved on facebook by some Zouheir Abdallah who was facing the angry mob that energetically responded to the sad article. He said: “Riddle me this, IF homosexuality is innate as you guys claim, then why hasn't homosexuality developed a natural way of survival? Why hasn't evolution given homosexuals an innate reproductive system in which 2 homosexuals can reproduce. Survival IS an innate instinct in which the human body adapts to ensure the race's continuity.” 

Let me argue to you why even this argument is a futile and meaningless argument against homosexuality. The key word here is “survival” and the problem is our misconception of this word: we mistaken survival as being generated by reproduction. The simple proof for this misconception is the good old dinosaurs example: (1) all dinosaurs reproduced, (2) almost all dinosaurs did not survive, (3) therefore reproduction does not lead to survival. That said, we ask ourselves, what is survival? Survival is pretty straight forward: it is an attempt, by a certain genetic code, to achieve the state of a constant fact in the universe. In other words, at any given moment in time, there must be at least one copy of the concerned genetic code. That is what it means to survive.

Reproduction, a constant and massive copying of the code, would simply increase the probability of finding at least one genetic code at any given moment in time, i.e., we have currently about 7 billion copies of this code. I point out here that to have enough numbers of genetic copies, not everyone needs to reproduce in their life time. If half of any given number of a population is reproductive, it would be enough to keep a good number of copies. For quite a while now, a lot of people live without reproducing, especially in Europe. Does this mean they are contributing to the extinction of the human race? This is quite doubtful, when the actual number of human population keeps on increasing. On the contrary, maybe we should start thinking about restraining the numbers, as this increasing number of population is slowly but surely becoming more of a threat for survival than a help, i.e., poor living conditions, malnutrition, etc… 

Reproduction is only one side of the survival business. The other is protecting the current code by eluding dangerous conditions that may eliminate a code, at any given time, i.e., sudden change of natural habitat or lose of caretakers of an infant, etc. Humans have been working on this front for millions of years, enough to develop the skill of producing actual technologies to protect us from natural disasters, to enable survival conditions for adults and children who carry the genetic code and who have less probability of surviving on their own. We do this by means of increase in our technology and intellect. Just as in the case of reproduction, not everyone needs to be producing technology and intellect at a given moment in time. Also, protection of the genetic code is not solely human, each species has its technology for survival: birds build nests and migrate; elephants remember the whereabouts of water and grass plains; leopards can climb a tree with their prey which weighs more than themselves to evade other predators; ants build colonies and organize themselves to attack enemies; chimpanzees adopts wild dog puppies that grow up and defend their adoption family from other predators; and the list goes on. 

Moral of the story: the conditions of survival requires that, at any moment in time since its creation, at least one copy of the genetic code concerned must exist. The big numbers of copies reproduced and protected only increases the chances of survival, nothing more and nothing less. Therefore, not all the populations need to indulge in the act of reproduction, noting that a big increase in numbers can fail survival by creating a massive extinction through lack of resources needed to protect the genetic code. A balance is needed to keep the survival of the code. 
We can notice by now that homosexuality has not occurred in our argument about survival: only carriers of codes such as humans. A homosexual is a human, and, as human, s/he may decide not to reproduce or they may decide to reproduce if so they wish. They may contribute to the production of technology and intellect that aim to protecting other humans, if so they wish. They may care for other humans that need them, if so they wish. In other words, they may do anything any other human chooses to do, precisely because of the leverage that the big number of the human population creates for all of us: we are not scared of extinction given we are 7 billion copies today. Contact me again when we are only several humans and then we'll start worrying about our survival innate instincts violated by homosexual behavior. 
And so, I would like us to remember that, as far as survival is concerned at least, we are all humans who carry the genetic code, regardless of our personal preferences and physical constitutions, and thus by default we are supposed to protect this code rather than point out that our sole purpose in life is reproduction.

by spleen

Tuesday, May 1, 2012


slimly you and temporal laughter
barely this and avoidable pleasure
saxophone backgrounds
in eternal vacuums
eternal first times
reiterated deflowers
pain, eventually i leave
as it leaves


one day i will be taken to a cottage far far away. i will be amused. i will be bathed and fed. i will be read stories until i want more. one day i will be taken to this cottage far far away, with trees inside out. i will amuse. i will bathe and feed. i will read stories i've written and stories i've not. one day after that, i will come back a different me, and after that another, and everyday, if i decide to look back, i will not remember where and how.