Wednesday, June 22, 2011


due to intolerable differences with myself, i have decided to kill me. this is not a suicide note. this is not a threat. this is not but a final thrill of consensually extroverted emotion, outsourcing heartbeat, outsourcing ...outsourcing silence as i seem to run, run run against the edge - as it seems to get closer, a boulder, a bolder infinite, now tangible - a closer horizon, now in past tense, as i run, -- run run past shed selves, intolerable differences with prior cores, contemporary exoskeletal debriefings, and i run. run run, into future fractures, inevitable distopic reflections of isotopes of me, of others i will make, others i will meet, others i will desert, as i, due to intolerable differences, run. run run.


"You'll be experiencing some special moments of connection with others today, raafat. You could end up having an intimate chat with someone you've just met. Or someone who is developing a romantic interest in you might ask you to share lunch or coffee. Look for pleasant conversations and harmonious collaboration to be the theme for the day. Enjoy a day of flow and ease, both with casual acquaintances and loved ones. You deserve it!"

Well I do, but. This is a lie. All a lie.
*kicks constellations*

Tuesday, June 21, 2011


Once upon a time, a tomato, a bell pepper, an onion, and a garlic jumped in a metal pool. The big hungry cranky monster put them in the oven, then after they tanned to death, he took them out, showered them with lemon juice and blessed them with salt and pepper. The big hungry cranky monster enjoyed it. And he will live happily ever after.

Monday, June 20, 2011

coffee spills / paper stills

i find it obliquely funny that time doesn't care. that there will be no rerun. that when i fuck up, it's "too late" :)

Thursday, June 9, 2011


"O-M-G, you're so sexy
You know you caught my eye with that B-O-O-T-Y
O-M-G shawty's such a freak
She says she wants to go back to my C-O-N-D-O
Let's go, go, go, go, go, go, go, go, go"